JOURNEY BACK TO ME: this journey began over 7 yrs ago...it's been an amazing journey with MANY "ups"....but lately a few "downs"...but all in all - it's worth every step! “It's not the situation ... It's my reaction to the situation” -Robert Conklin
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
HAPPY 2013: I'm STILL Walking the Journey....
I like the quote "HARD - is just a story you've convinced yourself to believe."
I like to hide behind the "story" it's been a "HARD year....", "HARD week..." etc. With this - it says I've been struggling - please don't ask me to explain or be authentic with you.
I like to hide behind the "story" it's "HARD to lose weight".... or it's "HARD to maintain" .... or it's "HARD to exercise". These stories say - I've got a great excuse to be obese, be obese or fat (again), or just plain couch potato lazy!
But really the quote is right.
I've convinced myself that things are HARD (or nearly impossible) when the truth is - the ONLY reason that are hard is because I've declared it so. I am ripping away the truth and promise "that I CAN DO all things....THRU CHRIST - who strengthens me ".
HARD - is a LIE...and a cop-out.
And....even though I've run up and against a TON of challenges this past year - thru truth is - I've come thru it! (with my sweet Savior's help....shoulder.... and strong arms pulling me along!)
THIS YEAR WILL NOT BE HARD....
it's gonna be the best one yet!!
Sunday, January 01, 2012
GLORIOUS 2012: Many changes this year....
Sadly...in July of 2011 the Coates Family boxed up our 850 sq ft. Brooklyn apartment and moved back to BIG TEXAS...this time not Dallas...but back to my home town of San Antonio. (My husband keeps reminding me it is the 7th largest city in the United States...kind of hard to believe!)
All in all...we've been immensely blessed. My husband is extremely happy and has a fabulous job. My daughter is going to an amazing private classical school -- 180* turn from NYC public schools. And we're all closer to my family.
I personally miss NYC....I miss every part of the city living....I miss my friends... and I MISS WALKING....
Can't believe I'm even saying that....but I loved the built in exercise....
Monday, January 03, 2011
HAPPY 2011: 4yrs. 9mos. PostOp
I'm listening to Misty Edwards - "My Soul Longs for you"
SOOO powerful...I've seen the Lord fall on me like a sudden Rainstorm...it's a pleasant surprise...sometimes uncomfortable...but when it's over -- YOU ARE SOAKING!
I want him like that now...this year.LET IT RAIN in 2011!!
Hallelujah Jesus...make all things new God!
In a short matter of time - HE ALONE can turn anything around.
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God's riches blessings in your WL Journey....
God has 'FREE'd' me in soooo many ways as I shed 160#'s.....wow.
it's hard to believe this all began nearly 5yrs ago!
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HALLELUJAH!! He makes all things NEW....including ME!
Friday, January 15, 2010
Shedding Light...
"I don't struggle with self esteem".... in the normal sense.
I set out that day to be authentic with myself...and my family/friends.
Funny enough ...I found I had/have "Mother Issues". I have finally got to a place with my "Mother Issues" where I realize I have been *believing* that I couldn't please her...when actually that is a lie. Praise God, it was just this fall that I had this huge breakthrough - I realized that what I thought were expectations or certain attitudes from my mother....was nothing that my Mother was putting on me or doing -- it was a lie that I had been believing most of my life....wow - when I realized it....it was like I shed another 160#'s....whoa, what freedom!
There is still sooo much more to work out... I get that this is a process. But, for now...I'm resting in the truth that my mother loves me...accepts me... is proud of me.
AND...I love me...accept me...and am proud of who I am -- not always happy with the choices I choose to make -- but will plug on...with each day I am given -- determined to walk authentically WITH as many LIGHTS ON as possible!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
MERRY CHRISTMAS: 32mos. Post Op
What a wonderful LIFE!
- Morbidly Obese
- In denial about how we were feeling...
- Depressed
- Hurting - physically & mentally
- STUCK!
And then we ended in the same place...
- Healthy weight
- Educated about food
- Educated about exercise
- Hopefully more sane
- LESS PAIN
- Thrilled with a new lease on LIFE!!!
Unfortunately, I gained every pound back + about 35 additional pounds! Now....I have a completely different lease on LIFE.
DONT BE MISTAKEN-- I'm NOT completely OVER my my eating issues...I'll need to blog on those thoughts later -- PROMISE I WILL!!
For now, my encouragement to you is.... just enjoy life....be encouraged....and make a choice -- and BELIEVE!!
Believe in yourself...that no matter your pathway you choose YOU CAN DO THIS!!! -----------------------------------------------------
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Thursday, December 04, 2008
JOURNAL: "5 Day Pouch Test"
- Does my pouch still work?
- Have I broken my pouch?
- Have I ruined my tool?
On the different support boards...and in WLS News & Blogs these tend to be the most common questions many weight loss surgery PostOps find themselves asking during their journey. I would agree with the consensus that it feels like we can eat more food especially when we see that we are eating more food. Sometimes I ask these questions when I see a bit of weight regain.
The following is a 5-day plan that I found on one of the boards and is commonly used to determine the pouch is working and help it return to that tight newbie feeling. The BONUS is it also gets us back to basics of WLS and helps us follow our POUCH RULES - hopefully triggering weight loss. (I'll let you know about this...)
It seems to not be difficult to follow & if high glycemic benge or on a cycle of carbohydrate cravings - this plan promises to break the pattern. Sounds pretty good, right? Here are some things to keep in mind as you try the 5-Day Pouch Test/Plan:
- The 5 Day Pouch Test should never leave you feeling hungry.
- You can eat as much of the prescribed menu as you want during the day to satiate hungry and prevent snacking on slider foods and/or white carbs.
- You must drink a minimum of 64 ounces of water each day.
- A reduction of caffeinated beverages is suggested, but do not stop caffeine cold turkey.
- Weight loss is not the intent of the 5 Day Pouch Test, however, many who have tried this plan report a significant drop in weight.
- More importantly they celebrate a renewed sense of control over their pouch and eating habits and easily transition back to a healthy post-surgical weight loss way of eating.
- Below you will find a brief list of the menu for each day.
- Please click the "Read more" links for further detail and hints and tips that will enable your success with the 5 Day Pouch Test.
Days One & Two: Liquid Protein low-carb protein shakes, broth, clear or cream soups, sugar-free gelatin and pudding..
Day 3: Soft Protein canned fish (tuna or salmon) eggs, fresh soft fish (tilapia, sole, orange roughy.
Day 4: Firm Protein ground meat (turkey, beef, chicken, lamb), shellfish, scallops, lobster, fresh salmon or halibut.
Day 5: Solid Protein white meat poultry, beef steak, pork, lamb, wild game.
I'm beginning this tomorrow...so let me know if you try this...I'll give you my results when I'm finished! Good luck!
Friday, October 24, 2008
Health Assessment: Get Healthy for LIFE!!
My Physical Parameters-
- Height: 68 inches
- Weight: 177 pounds
- Body Mass Index (BMI) - My BMI: 26.9
- Less than 18.9 -Underweight
- 19 to 24.9 - Normal Ranges
- 25 to 29.9 - Overweight (Pre-Obese)
- 30 to 34.9 - Obesity Class I (Obese)
- 35 to 39.9 - Obesity Class II (Moderately Obese)
- Over 40 - Obesity Class III (Severely Obese)
I've found that a great jump start to getting back on track and helping my body off of a weight-loss stall is thru ISAGENIX....
Deborah Coates | deborahcoates.isagenix.com
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Miss PIGGY -- no More....
Thursday, August 07, 2008
"IT'S ALL IN THE WAY THAT YOU LOOK...at yourself"
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- "little piggie"...
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- "sneaky eater"...
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- "could be so pretty if... I lost some weight"...
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- 11/13 sizes bigger than my size "0" best friend...
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- someone whose mother had to keep snack foods from her.
It spoke to me....I loved it's artistic nuances....but also loved it for what it meant to me in this new place of my journey.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
JOURNAL: Put Away Childish Things
"When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things." ~1 Corinthians 13: 11
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WHAT was Paul talking about.... ??
He couldn't be talking about toys, dolls, games - I'm sure he's talking about anger...cruelty...judgement...jealousy...spite - all the childish emotions that we lose ourselves to...that we REACT to - those emotions that hurt ourselves and hurt others. All of which gains nothing - and loses a lot.
But it seems many 'People of Today' like the drama...thrive off of it...they thrive off of being rude....'shooting from the hip' w/o thinking of others feelings. Maybe it's those sad country songs...all the 'reality TV....fighting and bity-ness....and even just the plain ol' 5 o'clock news! Do we turn away from it all - give it up - shrug it off ??
According to Dr. Christine Northrup (author of: The Wisdom of Menopause)
Three things that make you feel better than drugs or alcohol or sugar:
- exercise
- meditation
- sex
Much better to begin to apply our understanding of system ideas to our life, our interests. The point is, there are reasons for putting away childish things, and when we understand these reasons, both theoretically and personally, practically nothing will be able to stop us from putting away those things that are delaying our evolution, interfering with our deepest intents.
Only apparent change comes from without—whether that "without" is society, or our false personality. Real change comes from within.
"Brethren, be not children in understanding: howbeit in malice be ye children, but in understanding be men." ~1 Corinthians 14: 20
Monday, October 22, 2007
Saturday, October 20, 2007
JOURNAL: October 20th/ 2007 - 18 mos PostOp

Tuesday, October 16, 2007
JOURNAL: "Pre-Bariatric Surgery weight loss..."
- "Obese patients who lose up to 10 percent of body weight before bariatric surgery have more rapid postoperative weight loss?? "1
I didn't lose ANY weight before my surgery....and although, I think that it's a good idea - I think this is a rediculous quote...and I am living proof that's it most likely not true. By my one year surgi-versary I had lost over 77% of my excess weight...now, 18mos post op....I've lost 86% of my excess weight!
According to an online article....it's seems to think differently:
- "Those who lost more than 10 percent of their excess weight before surgery were more than twice as likely to have lost 70 percent of excess weight one year afterward, compared with those who lost between none and 5 percent of their excess pounds before surgery."2
BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! I really hate this sesational crap-o-la...
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ANYWAY...it's not about a "formula" - it's about working hard...learning about nutrition...practicing a good exercise behavior...making good choices...having self-control...and being authentic with your inner self and WHY you got to became morbidly obese in the first place!
1 & 2 - United Press International; "Pre-bariatric surgery weight loss helpful"- Published: 16, 2007 at 5:17 PM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
JOURNAL: "Losing 158 pounds has been a JOURNEY..."
....and a DREAM!! Losing a 158 pounds has not only been a journey...but an adventure.
It has been a time to be authentic...a time to be honest...not only with myself, but with those around me.
It has been a pilgrimage of walking thru many years in and out of obesity...trusting God not only for the trek - but the pathway - and getting real about "Health & Wellness."
To me, Health & Wellness is three sided triangle...balanced perfectly on each side...there can be no unity in the equation unless you look at them & deal with them each equally.
- - weight & exercise
- - food & nutrition
- - my "thoughts & feelings"...
truly began - "Good" resulted in facing the pain. His word stood firm - For years, I hid inside myself with my weight issues - or my denial of my ‘weight issues’....once the weight started melting off, God showed me the deeper fights I had to face. "SAY WHAT?!"
It is not about "DIET" or "FAT FREE" - & I needed to understand more about food & nutrition... and make sure I understood 'what' and 'why' certain foods were better choices than others. Thru this journey I found that a regimen of whole foods, nutritional supplements, fasting and ‘functional’ exercise could be the choice for my new life.
Although I’d love to say that "did the trick"....it didn’t....it only opened my hearts door wider. And honestly...this is where my journey toward wholeness & freedom began. Only when I began to face the truth and stop avoiding the pain was I able to identify the smallest childhood pain - that to some might seem insignificant - but to a little 6 yr. old mind - was HUGE.
By facing this truth about myself...and letting God take me there, I found that I trusted Him more and more with my feelings.
This is where my healing began....and HIS truth....My Lords Word came alive -
- "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." ~Romans 8:28
No matter what you’re dealing with....if you have the courage to stand with authenticity in the pain you are facing - you will move beyond it to freedom and the fulfilment of your dreams.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Finding your Style when you lose Weight!
This IS a Weight Loss dilemma not only a WLSurgery dilemma! Get to know your new body...and what looks good on you - NOT JUST what fits!
~Deborah
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Be Brave...walk each day as it comes...minute by minute!
I love this quote....
Monday, July 23, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
JOURNAL: Usana....
- Lost the Cravings—it helped reduce carbohydrate cravings with the low-glycemic bars...and they were soooo delish!
- Lost the Pounds — I dropped nearly 7 pounds!!! (6.8#'s...and I've been on a stand-still....and now...continue to lose!)
- Jump-start to getting back on track with my healthy lifestyle — in hopes that I can lose that last 30#'s.....
- FOUND the initiative to the "New Me"— Helped me discover a smart simple plan....that leads me to a lean, healthy, and energetic person inside of me! Just what I needed!!!









