My Weight History....over the last 19mos.

JOURNAL: Put Away Childish Things

"When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things." ~1 Corinthians 13: 11

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WHAT exactly does this mean.... ??

WHAT was Paul talking about.... ??

He couldn't be talking about toys, dolls, games - I'm sure he's talking about anger...cruelty...judgement...jealousy...spite - all the childish emotions that we lose ourselves to...that we REACT to - those emotions that hurt ourselves and hurt others. All of which gains nothing - and loses a lot.

But it seems many 'People of Today' like the drama...thrive off of it...they thrive off of being rude....'shooting from the hip' w/o thinking of others feelings. Maybe it's those sad country songs...all the 'reality TV....fighting and bity-ness....and even just the plain ol' 5 o'clock news! Do we turn away from it all - give it up - shrug it off ??

According to Dr. Christine Northrup (author of: The Wisdom of Menopause)
Three things that make you feel better than drugs or alcohol or sugar:

• exercise
• meditation
• sex

But suppose one really likes those sad country songs, or enjoys rooting against a disliked football team, watches a negative TV show, and so on? Must we give it up? To my mind, to judge these things and so attempt to purge them from our interests is to miss the point entirely. Judging ourselves or others for something we now call childish, is simply substituting one childish emotion for another. In addition, these interests of ours are a big part of what we are, and that is not something we are trying to avoid; in fact, it is just the kind of thing we are trying to see, to penetrate.
Much better to begin to apply our understanding of system ideas to our life, our interests. The point is, there are reasons for putting away childish things, and when we understand these reasons, both theoretically and personally, practically nothing will be able to stop us from putting away those things that are delaying our evolution, interfering with our deepest intents.
Only apparent change comes from without—whether that "without" is society, or our false personality. Real change comes from within.


"Brethren, be not children in understanding: howbeit in malice be ye children, but in understanding be men." ~1 Corinthians 14: 20

Wow...what a journey....I'm continually amazed at where I've come from. It's very difficult to continue to loose weight...and I still have 24#'s to goal. I'm constantly battling thoughts of regaining... frustration... obsession... wild thoughts.... fear... all surrounding my weight. All surrounding my thoughts & authenticity about food. The facts are...I know the skinny on the skinny...and it's not a formula...or a game...it's a continuous work on my inner self...being authentic about what's really going on and surrendering to my King...having faith that only HE can calm this storm that rages inside of me....I must go back to Peace.

"The winds and the waves shall obey thy will - Peace be still.... Peace be still. Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea or demons, or men, or whatever it be. No water can swallow the ship where lies The Master of ocean and earth and sky They all shall sweetly obey thy will.... Peace, peace, be still."

I'm thankful to know where I came from...and to thank God that he's calmed my storm...and continues to calm my storms.

JOURNAL: October 20th/ 2007 - 18 mos PostOp

Wow...what a journey....I'm continually amazed at where I've come from. It's very difficult to continue to loose weight...and I still have 24#'s to goal. I'm constantly battling thoughts of regaining... frustration... obsession... wild thoughts.... fear... all surrounding my weight. All surrounding my thoughts & authenticity about food. The facts are...I know the skinny on the skinny...and it's not a formula...or a game...it's a continuous work on my inner self... being authentic about what's really going on and surrendering to my King...having faith that only HE can calm this storm that rages inside of me....I must go back to Peace.

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"The winds and the waves shall obey thy will - Peace be still.... Peace be still. Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea or demons, or men, or whatever it be. No water can swallow the ship where lies The Master of ocean and earth and sky They all shall sweetly obey thy will.... Peace, peace, be still."

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I'm thankful to know where I came from...and to thank God that he's calmed my storm...and continues to calm my storms.

JOURNAL: "Pre-Bariatric Surgery weight loss..."

• "Obese patients who lose up to 10 percent of body weight before bariatric surgery have more rapid postoperative weight loss?? "1

I didn't lose ANY weight before my surgery....and although, I think that it's a good idea - I think this is a rediculous quote...and I am living proof that's it most likely not true. By my one year surgi-versary I had lost over 77% of my excess weight...now, 18mos post op....I've lost 86% of my excess weight!

According to an online article....it's seems to think differently:

• "Those who lost more than 10 percent of their excess weight before surgery were more than twice as likely to have lost 70 percent of excess weight one year afterward, compared with those who lost between none and 5 percent of their excess pounds before surgery."2

BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! I really hate this sesational crap-o-la...

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ANYWAY...it's not about a "formula" - it's about working hard...learning about nutrition...practicing a good exercise behavior...making good choices...having self-control...and being authentic with your inner self and WHY you got to became morbidly obese in the first place!

1 & 2 - United Press International; "Pre-bariatric surgery weight loss helpful"- Published: 16, 2007 at 5:17 PM