Continuous Possitive Airway Pressure ~ CPAP

My doctor agreed that there was an overwhelming amount of evidence that the C-PAP machine will aid me in my sleeping!! WOW....I slept an overwhelming 71% of my night in restorative sleep b/c of the C-PAP.....

Can't beat that...so, he wrote me a perscription...and it only cost me a little over $100 to get it~ It is going to take a bit of time to get 'used' to the blowing into my face as I'm trying to catch my breath and fall asleep...but if it continues to feel strange I can push a special button that will lessen the pressure of the air, and gradually build up over 25min. period to the calibration that is good for me!

So...we'll see. I like the feeling of sleeping better~ And am thrilled that I don't have to pay hundreds as well as have a significant reason for having the RNY. I'll have my hubby take some picture of me in my C-PAP "getup"...quite humorous...it's a laugh!!~

Worries Over Weight-Loss Surgery

It's amazing what kind of 'coverage' gastric bypass is getting. I don't know if it's MORE since I decided to have it, or if I am just MORE AWARE ?!
So...the Wall Street Journal ran a piece in the personal section ...and my best friends boyfriend found it and cut it out....and then she sent it to me. We told them about my choice to have RNY 2 weeks ago...and although he didn't say it when we were having breakfast...he's been processing my decision - and is baffled why I would choose this journey.
I think of my 2 year old...and what I hear is - "how can I continue on this way, especially when she is getting more and more active...and deserves to have a Mommy that will 'go-go-go'...and run in the park with her!" ~ I know that there is risk involved...but, I think that it is so important for her...for me...for my husband.
Well...overall...the article wasn't THAT bad....it stated the known fact that the surgery has a 1 in 200 risk of fatality. That the surgery is especially risky for patients 60yrs....and it goes on. I'm not going to worry about this...
I'm "Queen LaTivo"....I've tivo'd anything to do with or that mentions 'gastric bypass' - little by little I am hearing stories, good and bad. I especially like hearing about people who have had the surgery 4, 5, 6 yrs. ago. It all comes back to - "this surgery is not an EASY FIX...it does get the patient out of immediate risks that are weight related." But, there are sooo many other emotional struggles that take much time and many years to break thru.
I know this now...and want to be educated in how to deal with my eating disorder...and how I deal with food in life...and how I emotionally deal with life thru food.~ ::::sigh::::
It seems that there is a high rising rate of patients that w/in a 3 yr. period have to return for additional surgery. 20.2% of surgery patients were admitted to the hospital the year after surgery. ~ wow this is sooo high! The other percentages are high as well....
I'm praying my way thru this one...

Letter from Gramm....

Well...I got a letter from Gramm today, and now I realize why I've been a little hesistant in telling my friends and family about my decision in having Gastric Bypass Surgery.

I am soooo "done" with the dieting scene...and this FINALLY has given me a light at the end of my tunnel...The voice in my head is constantly talking...and of course I am worried about being accepted and respected for my decision. I think some people think that 'fat people' go for the knife for an easy fix. It's not that way...in no way will this be an easy fix...It will take A TON of work to get thru the emotional eating baggage that I have...my mind will be the same and that is where the issues are. I just know that if my weight doesn't get off...in 5 years I will be in big trouble. And that is gaurenteed even if I stay this weight at 325!

Both my parents deal with weight issues...my uncle is very heavy...and I know my other family members have dealt with weight...but, as I know....I am one of the 'heaviest' members in my family beside my uncle...and my cousin Kim from my dad's brother. (Although...I think SHE may have had gastric bypass surgery a couple years ago!!~ hmmm...I'll have to check that out....I think she was very very large the last time I saw her...) Anyway...I've told a few very close friends....and all has been well. All were very very supportive! ~ What a blessing. I've told my sister, Kat...my brothers, Rob & Kenn. My Dad & Step-Mom -were sooo great & very supportive! I told my Gramm when I was in SA, at my brothers wedding...and asked her not to tell my Mom....I want the opportunity to tell my Mom...and need some time to prepare myself for if she is against this for my life. (I know she has her own thoughts on this subject...one of the girls in her office had the surgery, and her commits to me were very critical - and it didn't sound too accepting...and she didn't sound like she respected the decision.) I'm afraid this will be my situation as well...so, I think my husband and I have decided that we will sit down and talk to both, my mom and step-dad at the same time over Christmas. ( I think it will be very little time until my surgery by then...so, I won't have to worry if she doesn't approve!

Now…the point – I think Gramm may be concerned about my decision….she sent me a letter and a article about the pros and cons of the surgery…and highlighted her areas of concern. She didn’t tell me NOT to have the surgery…I can just tell that she is worried. It sounds as if she has talked to my aunts on the subject. I just hope she asked them to keep silent…and that I will be the first to tell my Mother…but, now…I’m not sure that will be possible~ oh, well….I’m not going to fret over it…what happens –happens!
I’m still going to have the surgery in about 4 months!! I go in for an appointment with my Dr. in a few days to hear the results of my CPap testing…and then hopefully I will get a machine and it will not be too costly!!~