Saturday, October 06, 2007

JOURNAL: "Losing 158 pounds has been a JOURNEY..."

....and a DREAM!! Losing a 158 pounds has not only been a journey...but an adventure.
It has been a time to be authentic...a time to be honest...not only with myself, but with those around me.
It has been a pilgrimage of walking thru many years in and out of obesity...trusting God not only for the trek - but the pathway - and getting real about "Health & Wellness."

To me, Health & Wellness is three sided triangle...balanced perfectly on each side...there can be no unity in the equation unless you look at them & deal with them each equally.

  • - weight & exercise
  • - food & nutrition
  • - my "thoughts & feelings"...


truly began - "Good" resulted in facing the pain. His word stood firm - For years, I hid inside myself with my weight issues - or my denial of my ‘weight issues’....once the weight started melting off, God showed me the deeper fights I had to face. "SAY WHAT?!"
It is not about "DIET" or "FAT FREE" - & I needed to understand more about food & nutrition... and make sure I understood 'what' and 'why' certain foods were better choices than others. Thru this journey I found that a regimen of whole foods, nutritional supplements, fasting and ‘functional’ exercise could be the choice for my new life.

Although I’d love to say that "did the trick"....it didn’t....it only opened my hearts door wider. And honestly...this is where my journey toward wholeness & freedom began. Only when I began to face the truth and stop avoiding the pain was I able to identify the smallest childhood pain - that to some might seem insignificant - but to a little 6 yr. old mind - was HUGE.

By facing this truth about myself...and letting God take me there, I found that I trusted Him more and more with my feelings.

This is where my healing began....and HIS truth....My Lords Word came alive -

  • "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." ~Romans 8:28


And now, awakened from my slumber of disillusions & dishonesty I found...self-control & self-discipline....education & awareness...and the pursuit of truth thru trusting God... ALL producing - "Miracle upon Miracles...& Grace upon Grace!"
No matter what you’re dealing with....if you have the courage to stand with authenticity in the pain you are facing - you will move beyond it to freedom and the fulfilment of your dreams.

2 comments:

Tara said...

Hi Deborah, YOu are a beautiful writer! I enjoy reading your posts.I wish you lived close because I know that we would be great friends. How is Usana going?? Lane and I rank advanced to Silver this past Friday! I was so happy. We actually maxed 2 centers. E-mail me sometime!
tara@livewellhealthproducts.com

Pat said...

Hey sweets,
I love that you write your deep stuff the same way that we talk. I'm so proud of you. Praying for you, Russ and Bella, as always.